Girl Chat With D

Hello Earthlings!

I have had a whirlwind of emotions this holiday season. I don’t know about anyone else but during the winter time my mental health starts going haywire. A friend of mine told me during the winter time, the sun isn’t out as often which can cause us to have low Vitamin C. Did you know studies show low Vitamin C can cause depression? Which is exactly why during the winter time many peoples depression or other mental health issues start acting up.

D’s Mental Health

D’s mental health is absolute s**t….not really…but kind of. So, my mental health is not the best, anyone who knows me knows this. I tell people I’m “on the road to recovery” with my mental health because for the past year I have been trying to cope with my mental health without being on an absurd amount of medication. I have been diagnosed with:

• Severe Anxiety: intense, persistent worry and fear that significantly disrupt daily life, leading to debilitating physical symptoms (racing heart, shortness of breath, nausea) and mental distress (intense dread, racing thoughts, avoidance).
• Major Depression: a serious mood disorder marked by a persistent feeling of sadness and loss of interest in daily activities, lasting at least two weeks, and impacting how you feel, think, and behave, with symptoms like sleep/appetite changes, fatigue, concentration issues, and feelings of worthlessness.
• Bipolar Disorder: a brain disorder causing extreme mood swings, from manic highs (euphoria, high energy, irritability) to depressive lows (sadness, hopelessness, fatigue).
• Intermittent Explosive Disorder: a mental health condition marked by sudden, impulsive outbursts of aggression (verbal or physical) that are disproportionate to the situation, causing significant distress, relationship problems, and potential legal trouble.
• Post Traumatic Stress Disorder: a mental health condition that can develop after experiencing or witnessing a traumatic event, causing symptoms like flashbacks, nightmares, severe anxiety, and avoidance of reminders, significantly disrupting daily life
• Borderline Personality Disorder: a mental health condition causing unstable emotions, self-image, and behavior, leading to impulsive actions and chaotic relationships, often rooted in intense abandonment fears, identity issues, extreme moods, and risky behaviors like self-harm or substance abuse.

I actually wasn’t kidding when I said I got issues LOL. Luckily, after many years of practicing I have learned to cope with it but even now it’s not easy. Mental health should be a priority for everyone. You can’t be okay if your mind isn’t okay. Have you ever felt like your all alone in this world and nobody understands you and nobody could possibly understand how you feel because this is just your life? That’s me on a biweekly basis (it used to be every day so I’m proud). Now, I have gotten really good at recognizing when I’m having a “mental health moment” a.k.a a meltdown and I’m able to use coping skills to turn it around and get through it. The reality is, I honestly think my brain is my worst enemy sometimes; I constantly have to tell my brain “no your wrong, I deserve better”.

My mother used to tell me “you are your own worst enemy” and it was so true. Even now, nobody beats me up worse than I do. I remember one time I told my friend about how I was insecure about these scars on my face from an accident I was in as a child. This smart a** said “I wouldn’t have even noticed if you didn’t say anything” and I started thinking to myself “I really am my worst critic”. Now, I have learned that I should talk myself up if anything because most of the time, people aren’t even noticing your flaws.

Have a great New years!

Until next time peeps!